Done being sick. For the most part.
I can't decide how I feel about the school year almost being over. I wish I could just hang in time, where nothing and nobody change. Or maybe I don't wish that. I wish I could fast forward throught time to see where I was 10 years from now. I would be content with my life if I was where I want to be now. It seems like all I wish for is far away in the future. But I have this need to satisfy everyone around me, and that is the base of my life 10 years from now. I have dreams of being a doctor. But my dreams used to be just to be happy. Am I becoming harder to please to myself?
...A lot of this thinking may come from the fact that I'm going to Mira Loma. And, that, for the next 4 years, I will be working my butt off and social lifeless.
I'm scared that I'll become personalityless too.
When I picture it in my head, I get this big picture. Have you ever been to Krispy Kreme doughnuts and seen the way doughnuts are made? I feel like each one of the Mira Loma graduates are going to look like the boxes. Stamped, counted, glazed. Just perfect. But not human.
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