long time no post, no excuses

high school is not all that it is made to be
people come, people go, people change
i suppose you just have to try and stay the same
and be true to yourself
many people are forgetting this

life's a blur
i forget the events of yesterday
but today is better; need i remember the events of yesterday?

Back in the swing of things

Wow I haven't written in over a month. And now reading back on some of my previous posts, it feels like I'm a different person, reading someone else's blog. Avi's graduation party has come and gone. It was a great time, with the family and all. PE is over. One more thing off the list. And school starts in a few weeks. This was just a re-starting post, much more in depth to come. San Francisco for some chill time tomorrow at Union Square.

Hasta la vista, baby.

"As time and distances pass, best friends become strangers" HATE THAT QUOTE.

My best friend is moving. Well, one of them. And not that far away either. Just half an hour. I found out today. And became really really mad. But it feels like a Thousand Miles because right now she lives a minute away. And she is the girl who I met in the sandboxes, the one that comes over if I don't pick up my phone. And we have our Sunday routine. The one where we pretty much hang out all day. And I don't know how to describe us. She's just the perfect best friend. The one I go to for everything. We went to school together for 6 years. And then we went different ways for middle. And we both had no hope of going to the same high school, but now she's going to one way far out. I should feel lucky that she isn't moving to a different state altogether, because those were the original plans. But still. I don't think our friendship will be the same. I hate this. I hate today.

Carpe Diem, Seize the moment too?

(One of those moods)

Why is it that feelings are so easily felt, yet so difficulty expressed? I feel like I leave so many things unsaid because when, during a conversation, I start thinking about what I'm going to say next, the topic is changed. And if I hadn't thought, then what if I'd have said something stupid? I know many people who don't think before they talk and they just end up looking like idiots. But is it considered 'overthinking' if you never get a chance to say what you wanted to? This doesn't happen to me as often as it seems like, it just always ends up happening when I have something majorly important to say. And I also think I have tons of things that people should know, things that I wish I could tell people, I just missed the oppurtunity to tell them, and the right moment.



THIS SATURDAY! SO EXCITED! Well, actually the next 2 weeks will pretty much be 'party it up' weeks. This coming week looks like a lot of PE (which I can't wait to get back to. What's wrong with me?), tons of dance practicing, tons of family, and hopefully a lotta fun.

Saturday Night Fever

This past week has gone by way too quickly. But still, I feel like I've learned a lot through experiences. At this one party, we were all sitting outside a Holiday Inn playing cards while there was a formal party going on inside. We felt bad but the party inside was really boring so we didn't give it much thought. The kids I was playing with were mostly sophomores or juniors. I felt like a youngin', it was kind of intimidating. First we played hearts, then BS. Usually, I'm pretty good at BS (haha, no pun intended). I always keep the same exact "poker face". But this time, there was this older guy that I'd never met before who knew every single time I was BSing. He was pretty smooth about it, he would never even THINK before he picked up my cards. Every single time. At first I thought it was coincidence, but then I noticed that he never picked up anyone else's cards; just mine. I looked at the kid for a while and I asked him his name. He said "________". Turns out he was one of my really good friends when I was younger, but he'd moved away for a while. I was really excited to see him again, but then I asked, "How come you know every time I lie in this game?" so he said


..."You scratch behind your ear"


Just another one of those ironies.

Look at the stars, look how they shine for you

Great Day! I woke up very very very sore. So sore I couldn't walk. Too many weights ayer. I somehow got up because the padres said that I would loosen up if I ran. And sadly enough, I'm beginning to enjoy summer school. I know it's 5 hot hours under the dirty valley sun but it feels good. I made some new friends. People mistake me for this other girl. It was funny, 10 minutes after school, a random guy comes up to me and started talking to me about his cannon ball into the pool was so funny. I said "Dude. Get a life." Because I thought he was trying to be overfriendly. Well, I must've sounded MEAN since he mistook me for the other girl. But ugh I don't want to look like someone else. What if there is an identity crisis and she steals my credit cards (the non-existant ones)? That way, she could get away with it.

So, I can't wait for Harry Potter. Both the movie and the book. Oh, and for all of the people out there that think Harry will die.
I have nothing to say to y'all.

Yes and I have a confession. I know I used to hate Papa Roach, but not that bad anymore. I mean, just the name is ugly. It makes you think of cockroaches on pizza dough.